"God Got Tired"

After the past few days, I've decided that I need to start praying for patience and understanding again. I do my best to always show love to others but I feel that I have failed miserably this week. I have been unusually short with others, jumping to conclusions, and have been more reactive instead of proactive.

"I'm gonna beat the crap outta you because that's the Christian thing to do!"

Clearly not but that doesn't mean that I haven't let my temper get the best of me. I sat up last night writing an email try to get a better understand of things in life; why I have felt so rejected and how I need to handle situations. I love writing and just letting everything spill out. I don't even think about what I'm saying and by the end, I realize that I have nearly perfectly portrayed my feelings. I laid in bed for over an hour trying to fall asleep but it wasn't until I was able to get everything off my chest and out there to someone that was I able to simply relax, close my eyes, and get some rest.

My point is...or am I just rambling again? I'm not perfect. No one is (well, there was this one guy...but we killed him). I make mistakes and I will continue to make mistakes. But I hope with each one I learn a lesson and am able to take that with me into the next day.

Freshman year in college, I received a devotional book from a dear friend. Remember seeing the billboards on the highway, little one-liners, as if they were coming straight from God's mouth? It's a book of billboards and this one seems conducive for me at the moment...


"Don't fear the future. I'm already there. -GOD"
There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off. Proverbs 23:18

"It's human nature to fear the future. After all, none of us knows what's around the next bend. Life is a series of hills and valleys, sharp turns and bumpy roads. Sometimes we'll be sailing down an interstate highway, enjoying the scenery, when we hit an unexpected detour that takes us miles away from our destination. What if we make a wrong turn and get lost?
Don't worry. God's already been there before you. He knows where all the ruts and potholes and speed traps are. If you open His map book- the Bible- He'll show you the best route to take to avoid the worst roads.
You can trust God to lead you every step of the way. He knows the beginning and the end, as well as the middle of the journey. He will walk right by your side through every circumstance of life. And He will never leave you. There is nothing to fear when you are walking with Him.
There is one catch. You actually have to listen and let Him teach you. You'll wander around lost if you refuse to read the map or ask for directions. So trust Him to lead you in the right direction. All you have to do is ask!"